Decisions

Its work from home Friday, with some Gin since about 4 and there's Daniel Powter on Free Loop.

I have a lot of random thoughts in my head and I need to organize them.

I think I am rather happy with work. I finally got into a scrum team, second half of last year, with a lead that's more interested with the technology rather than the business. Its a pity though, that he's not a super big fan of cloud but he has made me build a number things that's rather interesting too. Maybe I'll talk about that someday. He's nice, generous with appraisals, a little awkward when we talk in person, but there's really nothing else I can complain about.

He wants go into Graph and LLM for the next half of the year, to help improve the overall quality of work across the line of business - because quality of work is relative to amount of knowledge, and that understanding of things in our context is largely built on establishing their relationship - or so we said - so we will be building a Knowledge Engine.

I have decided that I'll be buying a place of my own, that I'm moving out. With the Chinese, its customary that we only move out if we get married.

I'm not getting married, because I don't think its rational to make a commitment base on feelings, moments that are transient. I've decided to move out because I want more control in my life and routines. I've been dragging my feet for a really long time because I know it will break my parents heart a little if I do this, because they are very traditional - it would be difficult to make them understand how I feel - the kind of stability and consistency that I want in my life. But they should be able to see it eventually, that this would be good for me.

I went back to read the older posts. Truth is, I cant remember very much of the details anymore, but only how I felt back then. Its ironic isn't it, that if feelings are transient then how is it that after a really long time, its only feelings that we remember and not details.

I remember a dialogue from somewhere - that says that there is a difference between strength and imperviousness - that if a substance is impervious to damage, it does not have to be strong.

Maybe its the Gin. Like I said from the start - random thoughts, unrelated.